A few days ago, I read this book ‘Who moved my cheese?’. There was one question in it- What would you do if you weren’t afraid?
I put this as my WhatsApp status and got a few replies. And I also realised something- maybe the question is not about what I would do if I get enough time and resources. The question is more about- whether I really know what I would do if I am not afraid.
I must say it is not easy to admit that I do not have the answer. If you tell me today that bro, I got your back. Do whatever you have always wanted to do. Well, there is a long list of what I want to do but it is all in bits and parts. Do I have one solid thing- nope, nothing clicks.
I have given a thought of what may be the reason for such a decline in my own interests. At the outset, it is alarming just to admit it. When I deep-dived in this state of mine; the answers aren’t crystal clear. But you don’t need to be super smart to add up the pieces and find out where the fault is.
The short and easy way for this lack of interest will be to blame my work culture and shrug off all the responsibility. To be honest, it is one of the reasons. Such has been the state of affairs in office since the last couple of years that there is hardly any time to breathe. But that would be a soft target. I can get away by blaming my employers but then, they aren’t at fault here.
For that matter, even at work; such is the work that priorities changes every 10 minutes. So there also I am not doing one single thing for 2 hours. But as it is at the workplace, let us keep it out of discussion.
Obviously there is a change of lifestyle. Now I have a family to take care of and with that comes, a lot of responsibility and additional chores which might sound nothing but takes up a major part of the day. But this isn’t also a reason.
There is a bigger concern here- it is a lack of focus. I do not remember the last time I did something for 2 hours straight which was outside the office.
Binge watching Netflix doesn’t qualify. Watching Arsenal play football on weekends does not qualify. Napping does not qualify. Drinking sessions are often more than 2 hours long but I leave that to your discretion and judgement. Reading books can be an answer but in the context of the question, let us stick to activities which are productive and have tangible benefits.
When I started blogging, I had this energy to reach back at 8 in the evening and fire away a post once every 3 days. Today, there is a discomforting lack of energy to switch open my laptop. I often end up staring at blank pages. I am writing this one on mobile because I believe that if I switch on my laptop, I might not finish this.
Just like any other change, this one has also happened over the years. When I was not noticing how I am losing interest in my own interests. Today, it is about accepting that I have hit the rock bottom with the realisation that I need to work more on my interests.
The only way from here is up, right?
Originally published on https://twitter.com/tusharagg87/status/1705677939789205529?t=rWC9GyGifgHlcRnfhcH0-Q&s=19